i dont know if it's

more guilt than sadness. or the other way around.


either way, i dont feel really happy about my life.
i mean there's aspects of my life that i love.
but what i'm sad about kind of overwhelms those aspects sometimes.
or at least it feels like it.




i want things to change but i'm not doing anything about it.
i want to get out of here before i get sick of everything and everybody for no reason.
its rare for me to be cheered up now these days.

... i guess you can say i'm depressed.






maybe i'll move to ikebukuro.
or something.